i fell asleep somewhere around 9pm last night, woke up once at 11pm and messaged ben that i had fallen asleep, then promptly fell asleep again and didn’t wake up till 12am. my pregnancy has been like a case of narcolepsy O_o i keep having crazy sudden naps… if i sit down for too long on a comfy surface you better believe i am going to sleep.
but now its past 4 in the morning and i am wide awake. i’ve been productive at least. did some house wifey things, attempted to wash dishes and was sprayed by a mile high geyser when my faucet decided to detach itself from the sink. lovely… it appears that if i run hot water though it for too long it somehow separates from the sink, i have no idea why but yeah.. not fun.
i’ve already gotten a few mother’s day well wishes on my facebook and it makes me feel weird. melancholy would be the best way to describe it i guess. i am happy, i’m celebrating my first mother’s day as a mom instead of just a daughter, but its sad that my own mother passed away just before mother’s day last year. my relationship with my mother was very turbulent, especially in the last years of her life, but i do have fond memories of her and i do wish that she (and my father) could have stuck around for them to be grandparents.
i do however still have ben’s mother. i am very thankful to have a mother-in-law that likes me. ben and i are taking her and her boyfriend doug to see dark shadows on monday for late mother’s day (ben won’t be home until monday afternoon so no plans tomorrow). dark shadows is sorta another sad thing though, as it was one of my mom’s favourite television shows and i have fond memories of her recording it off of the sci-fi channel for me to watch when i got home from school. i think she would have enjoyed the movie, even though it has nothing to do with the original show.
ben and i will be buying some flowers to put on mom’s grave for mother’s day when we go up to my doctor’s appointment on the 22nd (my doctor’s office is very close to the graveyard where she and dad are buried)
in happy mother type news, my sister-in-law and brother found out on the 9th that they are having a boy as well. they have decided to name him gary dean, after my father. she is due on september 17th so hopefully i will be recovered enough by then to cheer her on.