i have been failing at my blogger duties. this place has been dead for pretty much a full month. i have been working on some personal goals for myself lately and happy to report that i have achieved a few small goals towards my 2014 goal of being kinder to myself, and feeling better about my outward appearance.

i have bought a bunch of nice clothing that wasn’t plain tshirts and jeans, there are skirts in my closet! and clothing from hot topics! the kinds of things i haven’t worn or been able to afford in forever! being able to say yes i can buy this outfit at the mall is honestly really freeing…

i dyed my hair :D i’ve never coloured my hair, my mother didn’t allow it when i was young and when i was an adult i just never had the time or money to do anything. so with ben’s help i bleached and dyed my hair the colours of a peacock feather. Kinda obsessed with my hair now.

i love it. it looks so pretty in the sunlight!

while i haven’t been writing on my blog, i have been vlogging a bit. you can check my channel out if you are interested in that. lately i feel like its easier to just talk to a camera than sit down and write a bunch of stuff down. that said, i am not getting rid of my blog, and i do want to use it more often, i think the whole site needs an overhaul. i don’t need to sell advertising stuff anymore but i do want to do reviews just cause i enjoy doing them.

enough rambling, i have to do parent things.

we don’t really celebrate easter (at least not as a religious holiday) so i neglected to blog. this was the first year we made vincent an easter basket of sorts. actually it was more of a bucket. i didn’t want to buy him one of those prepackaged easter baskets because they are usually full of candy he cannot eat and toys he won’t like/can’t play with. so i decided to put together a bucket for him. he loves buckets. we have a few clean ice cream buckets that he carries around all the time, so i figured i’d get him a cute easter bucket to add to his collection.

the toys in the easter section of walmart were crap. pencils, tiny things he would eat and choke on… i got him a stuffed bunny and then went to the regular toy section for the rest of his bucket. the rest was comprised of a jake and the neverland pirates bubble sword, a captain hook doll that talks, and a weird owl toy that lights up with thrown.

easter bucket!

easter bucket!easter bucket!

i hid the bucket where he likes to hide. in the bottom cabinet of the thing we put the microwave on. he found it pretty fast :D all toys were played with for about 15 minutes and then we had easter breakfast (eggs, ham, sausage gravy and biscuits)

and that was that! when he gets older we’ll do more. i did plan to dye eggs and then forgot to boil them.. oops..

i’ve not had much to say blog wise lately. life has been happy and boring. we passed the 1 year mark since ben’s knee injury last year. i kinda held my breath in fear on the 8th as i’m a bit paranoid of stuff like that happening again. i do not want another 6 months like last year. ben has been building a storage building to replace the storage trailer we rented last year (which was taken away after his injury because we could no longer afford to rent it). with vincent walking around the house we really need to get some of this clutter into storage, so i cannot wait for this thing to be done! we have stuff piled everywhere that was originally supposed to be stored in that storage trailer.

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the weather has been lovely and vincent has been outside almost every day. i’m starting to relax with him being outside and i don’t hover quite so close anymore, letting him explore a little without me standing right behind him.

in 5 days we will have a special visitor from australia! my boss is coming to meet me and we are going to take her to mayberry. its weird to think of that town as a tourist attraction when i grew up near it, going to the shops and restaurants down town all the time as a kid. i’ve got a little map and list of important tourist spots and we’ll try to see them all :D

i am slowly working on project me. i bought a few things at the mall the other day and since then i’ve really felt the need to be successful at this. i got two pairs of pants from old navy and found out i fit in a smaller size than i originally thought it did. i got a couple of maxi skirts from walmart and i even bought some things from hot topic. now i am working on my portion control with food, and trying to not binge when i am stressed out. so far its mostly worked. i am trying to keep myself accountable with myfitnesspal.com and so far i’ve managed to log in every day for 19 days! definitely feeling dedicated lately.

and i’m vlogging, if you didn’t notice my last blog post. i don’t really have a schedule, and i’m not sure what i will be vlogging about. i am open to suggestions and q&a type things.

and that’s all i have to blog about for now!

after i got the plague i got a little lazy with blogging again. we’ve not really had any excitement lately, and the weather has sucked, so there’s been nothing to really say.

march is half over and i’m quite excited because april should be fun! ben’s birthday is on the 2nd, and then the 4th is our original anniversary from when we were teenagers, and we are mushy so we count it as if we never broke up. later in the month i will get to meet my boss for the first time in person! she has been traveling for a couple of months now, going to conferences all over the place and she is planning to stop by for a day. we are going to take her to mayberry!

vincent has been chatting up a storm and its hilarious. some of the things he tries to repeat come out sounding like other things.. which i giggle about.. because i am immature. but really after he got over the talking hump he has been going non stop! i’m so excited to hear him speak! we have been going through a lot of changes with him lately, including buying him actual plates and dismantling the crib!

the crib has been in our bedroom for so long, that now that its gone i feel like there’s this awful empty space on my side of the bed, i need to work on that at some point. vincent’s car bed finally has a mattress in it, but its not being slept in quite yet. the most i can get out of him is sitting on it briefly. we’re working on it.

this blog post feels like its missing something. so here is a cute picture of vincent.

vincent caught some kind of monkey flu from chuck e cheese… except he never really acted sick. he was running around like normal, then just stopped in his tracks and started puking every where.. and this happened about 3 more times and then he went to bed. when he woke up and was still a barf machine i took him to the doctor, who basically just told me to starve him and give him pedilyte. he was not thrilled but he was feeling better. i on the other hand contracted his monkey flu the next morning.

where vincent was as hyper as ever, i became a human sloth. i could not move, or talk, or really see.. everything was dizzy and gross. and of course ben was on the road so i was stuck alone with vincent. where were the people who said they would help me out and always told me to call if i needed them? they declined my invitation to assist me… so i basically just had to let vincent cry in a crib most of the day (it was next to my bed, don’t freak out on me) while i laid there feeling like death. yes of course i managed to get up and carry him to the changing table for a diaper now and then but even that felt like carrying a small elephant a mile or two..

vincent and i are feeling better but i am still kinda weak. now ben’s sick so i still don’t get any help. i’ll survive though.. i always do.

a good friend of mine’s son turned 2 yesterday and to celebrate she decided we should all load up and take a trip to chuck e cheese in the nearby city (by nearby i mean an hour away). so we went and while i haven’t been to chuck e cheese since i was a small child, i figured it was going to be hell but also fun and hey free pizza… vincent doesn’t get to be around kids much, which sucks, but most of my friends had kids early so they are all way older than vincent. so when there is an opportunity for him to be around kids i jump on it, even if it will leave me exhausted and frazzled.

it was a mad house, and even our hostess was kind of shocked by the sheer chaos tightly packed into this building. we ate pizza and cake, we took pictures, and we got the hell out of there.

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vincent did enjoy himself, but he was maybe a bit too young for the place. he obviously can’t play an arcade game yet so all he really got to do was ride some kiddie rides and sit in my lap while i played a couple of games. we didn’t win many tickets cause i was too busy with him to play the games that spit out tickets, but i was able to get him a little inflatable sword, and then i ended up buying him a chuck e cheese toy.

we probably won’t do that again for a very long time!

his first snow

we had our first actual snow of the year a couple of days ago! we’ve had plenty of winter weather but most of it was gone by lunch time, so when this hit i was excited to take vincent out to explore in the snow. he enjoyed it and was very upset when i finally had to drag him in the house. i hate being cold but i love the snow. if i could just have snow without the face burning winds and frozen fingers i’d be in heaven. sadly we only got one good day of snow, it started melting the next day, completely gone now. now we just have the cold.. and the wind. not fun.

who cares? right? well i haven’t painted my nails in several years (like 5 or 6?) so for me this is a big step forward. part of my goal this year is to put more effort into my appearance. of course that isn’t working out too well because anyone who has a small child will tell you, there’s not much time to do anything for yourself. but the other day i got 3 free zoya nail polishes and snuck in a tiny manicure while vincent had his nap.

zoya "claudine"

my nails are not spectacular, but i did a pretty good job for someone who hasn’t painted her nails for so long. of course my polish is wrecked now, chipping in several places, but i did not invest in a top coat, so 3 days later they are not too pretty. still i am proud of myself for taking the time to do it, and i’ll buy some top coat later on.

next on my list is to buy more outfits that do not consist of tshirt and worn out black jeans.

i had some “goals” for this year and i’ve already kinda borked out on all of them. i wanted to blog more, and well.. this is the first blog of the new year. nice going jenny… i wanted to vlog, but so far i have yet to record a damn thing, mostly because i found out my new camera only records in one minute segments, and i still have to figure out how to change that. so yeah, i apologize in advance, i have already failed you new year.

in my defense, there hasn’t been much to talk about. its that boring lull time where the holidays are over, and nothing really exciting is going on. another of my goals was to take vincent outside more, but that’s failing without me even trying because the weather has been crap here lately. its nice and sunny today, so maybe we can make it out there later.

i really don’t know what to do with this blog, i feel bad that i can’t seem to come up with posts these days! hopefully something exciting will happen for me to entertain you with. right now i have to go be mom.