a good friend of mine’s son turned 2 yesterday and to celebrate she decided we should all load up and take a trip to chuck e cheese in the nearby city (by nearby i mean an hour away). so we went and while i haven’t been to chuck e cheese since i was a small child, i figured it was going to be hell but also fun and hey free pizza… vincent doesn’t get to be around kids much, which sucks, but most of my friends had kids early so they are all way older than vincent. so when there is an opportunity for him to be around kids i jump on it, even if it will leave me exhausted and frazzled.

it was a mad house, and even our hostess was kind of shocked by the sheer chaos tightly packed into this building. we ate pizza and cake, we took pictures, and we got the hell out of there.



vincent did enjoy himself, but he was maybe a bit too young for the place. he obviously can’t play an arcade game yet so all he really got to do was ride some kiddie rides and sit in my lap while i played a couple of games. we didn’t win many tickets cause i was too busy with him to play the games that spit out tickets, but i was able to get him a little inflatable sword, and then i ended up buying him a chuck e cheese toy.

we probably won’t do that again for a very long time!

his first snow

we had our first actual snow of the year a couple of days ago! we’ve had plenty of winter weather but most of it was gone by lunch time, so when this hit i was excited to take vincent out to explore in the snow. he enjoyed it and was very upset when i finally had to drag him in the house. i hate being cold but i love the snow. if i could just have snow without the face burning winds and frozen fingers i’d be in heaven. sadly we only got one good day of snow, it started melting the next day, completely gone now. now we just have the cold.. and the wind. not fun.

who cares? right? well i haven’t painted my nails in several years (like 5 or 6?) so for me this is a big step forward. part of my goal this year is to put more effort into my appearance. of course that isn’t working out too well because anyone who has a small child will tell you, there’s not much time to do anything for yourself. but the other day i got 3 free zoya nail polishes and snuck in a tiny manicure while vincent had his nap.

zoya "claudine"

my nails are not spectacular, but i did a pretty good job for someone who hasn’t painted her nails for so long. of course my polish is wrecked now, chipping in several places, but i did not invest in a top coat, so 3 days later they are not too pretty. still i am proud of myself for taking the time to do it, and i’ll buy some top coat later on.

next on my list is to buy more outfits that do not consist of tshirt and worn out black jeans.

i had some “goals” for this year and i’ve already kinda borked out on all of them. i wanted to blog more, and well.. this is the first blog of the new year. nice going jenny… i wanted to vlog, but so far i have yet to record a damn thing, mostly because i found out my new camera only records in one minute segments, and i still have to figure out how to change that. so yeah, i apologize in advance, i have already failed you new year.

in my defense, there hasn’t been much to talk about. its that boring lull time where the holidays are over, and nothing really exciting is going on. another of my goals was to take vincent outside more, but that’s failing without me even trying because the weather has been crap here lately. its nice and sunny today, so maybe we can make it out there later.

i really don’t know what to do with this blog, i feel bad that i can’t seem to come up with posts these days! hopefully something exciting will happen for me to entertain you with. right now i have to go be mom.

i forgot to blog the rest of giftmas. it was a great morning, and vincent was very excited to get his new stuff. we didn’t really get him much because he got some big expensive presents and he has enough toys for 12 children. he got a nabi jr tablet which is mostly for distraction at doctor offices and restaurants currently, an authentic metal radio flyer red wagon, a thomas bath robe, a set of thomas books, and a thomas fork and spoon set. yes i am feeding his addiction…



ben got me the camera i mentioned in my last blog, and 3 minecraft plushies! i got an enderman, a pig, and a creeper.all three are chilling on the shelf over my desk at the moment. from me, ben got what he asked for, a box set of back to the future movies. i kinda feel bad that my present is kinda lame compared to what he got me but he never gave me any other suggestions!

after we opened presents, and took a little nap, we went out to the family gathering ben’s mom’s side of the family was having. i didn’t really get any photos there except the one of vincent playing with his nabi, because i was busy chasing him around the room most of the day.


after a bunch of family time we went home and i made ham for the first time ever! it kicked ass. coca cola and brown sugar for the glaze. so good!

over all this is probably one of the best giftmas days i ever had.

now its the end of the year and like last year, new years eve is going to kinda suck. ben will most likely be on the road, which means i will spend all night worrying about him. i will probably just spend the night hugging vincent and then after he goes to sleep, fart around online and keep myself busy till bed time. not a very exciting life i know, but eh.. i’m 32, i guess its time to be boring.

until 2014!

last photo of the year

so here it is giftmas morning (its 12 am so.. technically?) and i’m awake, unable to sleep, i have no idea why i am even excited, i already got my present!

ben got me a nikon coolpix to replace my old dying camera. its taking some getting used to but i am starting to understand the settings. its still a point and shoot, hopefully someday i can splurge and get a nice fancy camera and be like all the cool moms who take pretty pictures. until then i am armed with a nice point and shoot and lightroom.

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of course vincent was my test subject for the new camera. i still have to figure some settings out to make sure i’m not blinding him or getting nothing but a boy shaped blur, but its pretty nice.

later that afternoon we went to ben’s half brother’s house for their holiday breakfast dinner. they had an amazing feast of food and then we played some silly games and had presents.

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as usual i did not take nearly enough pictures of stuff because i was too busy living in the moment. i read an article the other day that said that a lot of us miss out on things because we are too busy trying to capture the moment on our electronic devices. well not this girl.. i am always the one with hardly any photos of my adventures. i guess in the end that’s a good thing. the photos i did get were of vincent’s cousin and vincent’s great.. something or another.. i have no idea what relation she would be, she’s ben’s half brother’s mother in law lol, anyway they are playing some weird game where people have to shove balloons into panty hose and the first to get the hose on their head wins a prize. it was really funny to watch and vincent just kept interrupting them to steal balloons out of the box.

we had gifts and i was really not expecting anything but i got a set of bowls, a little glass teddy bear, and some cookbooks. ben’s dad never knows what to get me but its the thought that counts. the bowls and cookbooks will come in handy!

vincent got a few books, a couple of beanie babies, a jacket that is way too big for him but he can grow into it later, and the greatest gift of all: a huge family to run around with and have fun with.

tomorrow (or later today depending on when you are reading this) we are going to open presents when we wake up, get dressed and ready and go to a church (blah..) to subject vincent to more hugs and kisses from a bazillion family members and eat a bit more. then we’ll come home and i will be making my first ever ham! i am excited and scared! hopefully i can manage to take a few photos of that.


today is never a good day for me. it is a date etched into my memory thanks to painful loss. 5 years ago i awoke to a world covered in snow, usually a happy thing for me, but not this day. 5 years ago today i woke up to my mother sobbing, and people taking my father away on a stretcher for the last time. my dad hated snow, and the irony of his passing during a blizzard made me want to laugh, if i hadn’t been crying so hard.

there is nothing i can do, or tell myself, that ever makes this hurt go away. nothing dulls it, and in fact most things magnify it by multiples. i lost my strength and wisdom on this day. the person who guided me though life, showed me the right way to live, and was there when i needed someone the most. he was my hero, he was my friend, he was my father. i see him everywhere and it hurts that i cannot have him in this world with me anymore. i am pained with the fact that he will never get to meet my son, he will never get to walk me down the aisle.

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like last year i didn’t really get a chance to take any photos during thanksgiving. i was really busy this year keeping vincent out of everything. last year we just kinda laid him down on things and he was fine, this year he was walking around and wanting to see everything!

a little bit of thanksgiving

dinner was great, and vincent loved it. his first time having turkey and stuffing! and we’ve finally got him to drink out of a sippy cup without spitting all the water back out (i have no idea what that was about, he nurses just fine but didn’t want to drink water?).

and now another holiday looms in the distance. i still have to get a tree up and take a picture for my digital cards… we were supposed to visit santa today but its sleeting so we’re going to skip it. i’ve got all vincent’s presents taken care of (a nabi jr. tablet, and some thomas stuff), and now i’m trying to figure out what ben wants. this process is kind of like trying to extract information from a war prisoner… not that i can really say anything, since i don’t know what i want for giftmas either…

i think winter time makes me lazy. all i want to do is huddle under blankets and do nothing.

my job has been doing well and i’m really excited to be employed again. i got my first paycheck last week and spent most of it, but it was spent on needed items, and vincent’s giftmas present. i got him a nabi jr. tablet! they were on sale during the walmart pre-black friday sale on the website so i decided to just go ahead and get it. vincent has a major fascination with my nook, and ben’s phone, and my ipod, and basically anything with a touch screen, so we both agreed that this would be a perfect toy for him. its pretty much vincent proof and we can use it to distract him at restaurants and while we wait for his doctor appointments. i can’t wait to get it and try it out!

i also got a little bit of frivolous money from my check, gave myself a little allowance and bought some world of warcraft time with it. also a cute tshirt from teefury that features cuthulu as the kool-aid man. its so weird to have spending money! i sat around wondering what the hell to buy for hours! i know i should have saved it for the black friday sale but i couldn’t think of anything i wanted that would be on sale during that and i don’t really want to go to the store that day.

thanksgiving is very soon and i have no idea what we are doing for it. ben’s side of the family is usually our host because i don’t really have anyone to visit during the holidays (my brother isn’t doing thanksgiving, and that’s all i have down here). his dad doesn’t know what he’s going to do that day and his mom hasn’t returned his call so i’m sitting here two days from thanksgiving wondering if i should get a turkey and try to cook it myself. hopefully someone else will host so i don’t have to try and make something like that! i am not ready for turkey.

saturday was my best friend’s kids’ birthday party. she somehow managed to time her kids to both be born in november, but a few years apart. so they have a double birthday party. this year it was at a bowling alley and that was quite an adventure for vincent. he enjoyed running around looking at the lights on the jukebox, the crane machine, and other arcade stuff around the area where the party was. he enjoyed some cake and a few cheese puffs. i don’t usually feed him junk food but it was a special occasion so he got to eat a little.

and i took a few pictures:

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he went crazy with those balloons… glad they had a weight on them!

first week of november and i’ve already failed the blogging every day thing. oh well. i was having a hard time coming up with stuff to write about with the prompts provided anyway D: thanksgiving was never really a big deal in my family. lets just play catch up with life instead shall we?


our plans for halloween got a little messed up due to ben’s work schedule. his job decided at the last minute to tack on another stop before he could get home and he almost didn’t make it home in time for us to go trick or treating! thankfully as i was sitting here setting up alternative plans for transportation, he messaged to let me know he would be home in time. things ended up rushed and vincent refused to wear makeup (i was so looking forward to angry eyebrows too..) so he ended up being a “modern vampire in a suit” instead. he still ended up looking super cute. i tried to talk ben into wearing a costume but he didn’t like any of the last minute ideas i came up with, so he just wore his walken dead shirt (chris walken drawn to look like a zombie.)

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i have no idea what i am supposed to be. striped shirt, dress, skull face paint. i looked pretty awesome though. much nicer than last year’s fail costume.

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vincent got a pretty good candy haul for someone who isn’t old enough to really enjoy it. that’s ok.. his parents will make sure all that candy goes to a good home.. our bellies :p there was also some religious paraphernalia… i wish people would just let us have one damn holiday where they don’t force their religion on others. is that too much to ask? also thanks church lady who gave my 1 year old a baggy with beads in it… glad i got the bucket ahead of time…


i have no clue what i can really blog about regarding my new job, especially since my boss reads my blog (hi boss), and in fact found me because of my blog, but i will just say yay! i am employed! i am an administrative assistant and later on will also be a junior analyst for a website that helps tidy up backlinks for companies trying to fix their search engine scores. i am learning a ton about SEO and all that good stuff! very excited to have a job again, and especially one where i can sit on my butt and hang out with my son!

Other Random Things:

today is voting day and i’m going out in a bit to do my part. lots of people forget to vote during the years that have no presidential elections, but as a friend mentioned on facebook, every year is a primary, every person who gets voted in during these elections gets a change at a higher spot. so the people you vote for or against today have a chance at getting to be president someday. i gotta make sure a few people i dislike don’t get that chance. so i’m off to vote! i hope if you are in america and are eligible to vote, that you will as well.

i found a really awesome website for productivity called HabitRPG and i think i’m in love with it. i really think this will help me stay productive. i love checklists and this is a fun way to get things done while working towards goals and rewards!

another cool site i joined is Duolingo, which is a language learning website. its free and has a wide variety of languages to learn, plus more on the way. i’m currently working my way though german, since i already have a basic understanding of the language. the site is pretty cool! and like habitrpg it treats learning like a game which seems to be a great way for me to continue using a website for more than just two days..

ok! time to get dressed and head out.