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its may

i’m sitting on the floor watching vincent play with a stuffed easter chick and a cardboard tube. its a nice quiet moment while ben watches netflix in the living room. may brings up bad memories that i am attempting to … Continue reading

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day 12 of 31 – something i miss

probably not the happiest blog post but what i miss the most is my parents. even though my mom and i didn’t get along very well i miss both her and my dad. my dad died in 2009 and my … Continue reading

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an early start to mother’s day

i fell asleep somewhere around 9pm last night, woke up once at 11pm and messaged ben that i had fallen asleep, then promptly fell asleep again and didn’t wake up till 12am. my pregnancy has been like a case of … Continue reading

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deep breath…

i’ve spent most of today keeping to myself. going between normal emotions and then sudden moments of deep thought, reflection, and crying. for those of you that don’t know me, today is one year since my mother passed away. the … Continue reading

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tired of this crap

today the mail brought a letter from the medicaid office, saying they want to recover funds they paid for when mom was living. they want information about her assets, which… there really aren’t anymore. but just getting this after all … Continue reading

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no place for us

today was a pretty crappy day… we had a meeting with the county clerk’s office to settle mom’s estate. speed bump 1, it cost 42 bucks to put the land in our names… like we aren’t already shelling out a … Continue reading

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and now we learn to live again

trying to get back into the swing of things after all that has happened in the past week is hard. for the first time in my life i am without the advice of parents. sure i have my little brother … Continue reading

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everything went so fast..

yesterday i brought mom to the hospital. today she is dead. i am still trying to understand what has happened and cycle though so many emotions all at once. so much destroyed in such a small window of time… the … Continue reading

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the weirdest emotion i have ever felt

today or i guess now, yesterday, was a seriously weird day. for those that didn’t read my twitter or facebook messages. my mother was admitted to the hospital with severe hemorrhaging to the brain. she fell off of her bed … Continue reading

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i know i know i should write

i’ve not been writing any real blog entries later, and instead have spammed you all with music. that’s mostly because i haven’t had anything to say that i can easily jot down in a blog. basically money issues are starting … Continue reading

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